I have found a name that fits me better and I will be moving my Deviant Art site to another paid site. JuujunIdatenWolf It will take me time to get every one added to my sites again and get started over again! I dont have much else to update on since I'm turning or attempting to turn in early for bed. I have class from 8am till 11am.

Well another busy semester is about embark for me. Lot of my posted work will probably be things that I design for my Advanced Computer Graphics course. I'll be taking one class Summer I Mon-Friday from 8am till 11am. Wonderful every day with Mr. Sum for an entire month or so. I believe Summer one Starts May 29th, and ends July 3rd, and then we start Summer II on July 6th.I dont know for sure if I want to take Summer II or not. Weather i want to or not we need the money from the finaicial aid refund to pay off bills for my Mother and I. I may be stuck taking Summer II weather i wish to or not. I more and likely wont be graduating in the Fall as intended to.

I made D's in a couple of pretty important classes. Figure Drawing I don't really want the pain of retaking it if I dont have too. I fell so far behind in that class the week I was sick in February that it was literally very hard for me to get caught up. Same thing happened in Portfolio Preparations. Portfolio Preparation is an important class to set you up professionally for the Graphic Design realm of work. I really blew the class off more then I realized. I started researching guidelines and what entry level graphic designers need to know to go into the business. I did a lot of growing up this summer, and realized that that I still have trouble identifying different font classifications in typography designing and things like that. I'm not ready for the real world of graphic design jobs I dont think. Plus I think the fact that after gradation and me being on my own " in the real world " scares me. I dont know weather or not I have enough knowledge and know how to make it and function alone on my own. It scares me...I dont really know what to think in swallowing that pill yet.I've been too focused on other things in life to really settle down and do what I need to do. Romance, relationships and such have really taken a toll and I'm realizing now the hard way with a slap in the face that reality is catching up to me.

For now...as much contemplations as I've done in this writing and many many hours before...I think I'll retire for a few hours nap. Enjoy your holiday weekend!

Things right now are frustrating in life. Johns been pushing mea way after some stupid stuff that I said after I left Dallas. I stupidly accused him of using me and things along that line. He's been extremely busy between taking care of his two sons, and taking care of work. The mother of the twins at the moment are in jail. I dont know how to explain it, but things just don't feel the same right now. Before I went up there to visit and be with him John would randomly message sweet little notes to me via text message when he was at work. Or he'd be dying to hear my voice when and if I called on his brake to make sure he was doing alright. I just am having a hard time reading John right now. I am trying my damnedest to be patient and give him his space.

In Other News...

Things are decently calm right now. I hope during the semester even though I will be taking summer courses to start picking back up on Comic Drawing again and getting back into my anime / manga sketching. I need to try and repair adobe CS 3 Photoshop. Some module thing isn't reading correctly so soon as I close Firefox down I'm going to go take a nap, and I am going to repair the download for Photoshop. Depression has a strong hold on me right now and I'm stable. I'm fighting it for now, and I want to thank Korova Wolf for supporting me last night when I was in a really low point. Thanks babe dear. hanks again dearest.

*****
Ps:

My Gosh I'm rusty at DA commands!! I didn't think I had been gone that long! I couldnt remember how to do the command!

I also want to give special thanks to for allowing me to use her CSS Journal Layout Winter CSS Layout

Be sure to check out her site!! She has some awesome graphics and I kinda hijacked the Winter theme from Korovajournal! Sorry I hope you didn't change journal lay outs because of me. You were using it first I can always change! Lots of Love to all of my friends. I'm glad to be home! Missed you guys!

Finally a news update from yours truly! I haven't been in town for about a week or so after Spring classes ended. I've been back most this week and have been trying to attempt at resting up for classes to start Next Tuesday on the 29th. I am rather happy today though! I have offically brought the new Adobe CS3 Web Standard package for about 400$'s through student bookstore at school! I was excited and thrilled that I recieved such a good deal on this software! I wouldnt have been able to get the software any cheaper on random open market. I was looking at thousands of dollars for that! >.< So I am glad I got a cut through university book store!